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Blessings In The Mire

A True Story of Miracles & Recollections

Written from a brutally honest heart, this candid true story is part memoir and part spiritual miracles stories.

At the time it was written, I (the author) had lost my son to suicide, had handed the keys to my ‘Angel Store’ to new owners, gave my life over to the morass of depression, and fell to a place of such profound imbalance that it seemed most preferable and likely that I would follow my son into death.

Leaving behind all I had ever known, and undoubtedly attempting to out-run the memories of all I had ever known, I packed my belongings and moved to Southern California.

Rather than succumb to the grief, I mustered strength enough to sit at the keyboard as the otherworldly flow came thru me. Yes, I do realize how insane this sounds. And let there be no doubt about it: The death of a child leads to insanity, at least temporarily.

Although the journey I share is at times bitter, and is more often horrific and painful, it is worth holding onto my hand as I take you on the path of survival and near death. My unique position as the sole-proprietor of an “Angel Store” adds multiple dimensions to the story, while it doubtlessly also provided fuel for my quest to uncover answers to the questions most dare not ask.

Against all odds, this profoundly moving book ends on a high note. Ultimately, the reader is left with a profound love and respect for this vision of survival, and in some cases, readers report “healing effects” as a result of reading it.

A powerful, and empowering “MUST” read for anyone who has suffered loss, has questions about spirit transformation after death, or for anyone who has the guts to question indoctrination, dogma, and karma.

Read an excerpt: Excerpt from Blessings in the Mire by Jan Deelstra

What they are saying about

Blessings in the Mire

“A ‘MUST READ’ for anyone who has lost a loved one.”

Customer Reviews of Blessings in the Mire

Reviewer: M. Ashley:  “It is difficult to get through the first chapter. It is heart-wrenching, making your insides hurt. If you have experienced anything like losing someone close to you, you will relate in a way that makes it painful to read. But, by the end, the author has made you realize the beauty that lies hidden within that pain. There are reasons for everything; sometimes it just takes more dissecting to find them. Read it; you won’t regret it.”

Loss, Strength, Hope and Wisdom
Reviewer: Linda Magro:  “When I first began to read Jan Deelstra’s book, Blessings in the Mire, I thought it was a memoir on surviving the loss of a child. Although that is a large part of the book, it is so much more. It is a story of strength, fortitude and hope amidst all the hardships and challenges life can throw at us, from an anomalous childhood to the death of her son and beyond. The sheer strength and resilience of Deelstra to pull herself up out of the dark abyss time and again throughout her life is a lesson in bravery and the power of the human spirit. Blessings in the Mire is aptly titled, as it is truly a story of finding blessings, wisdom and miracles in the darkest of life’s mysteries. Deelstra has a profound ability to write beautiful, haunting prose. The following paragraph is one of my favorites from the book, full of such prolific wisdom that I must share it to give every potential reader a taste of her illuminating prose: “I have learned volumes, and nothing at all. A curious believer in reincarnation, at times I quip that I must have made some masochistic agreement to be hit with the “best shot” this time around. When did it become me against Goliath? When was it not? No one has the monopoly on pain, or on a hard life, and through all its sundry drudgery I wouldn’t trade my life for any other. There is great wisdom in this acceptance, or at least there is great relief. There is no need to live in any place except the challenge of the exact moment that is happening right now, or to look to any other green pastures but our own. We are the cultivators of our individual experiences. We have no one to blame the blessings on, but ourselves.” In conclusion, I couldn’t put the book down, and her words resonated with me, touching and providing healing strength to my own soul. There is wisdom in every heartbreak and synchronicity in everyone’s journey of self and universal discovery through life. Although there is a lot of heartbreak in this book, I believe only people who have been broken can help other broken people, and Deelstra has certainly accomplished this in Blessings in the Mire. I highly recommend this book to everyone who has ever had to deal with personal tragedy and hardship. It is a must read!”

Beautiful Blessings
Reviewer: M. Joy:  “‘Blessings in the Mire‘ is a beautifully honest book about survival and rebirth after losing a child. At times we have experiences that are so painful that we almost forget how to breathe. Jan Deelstra openly shares her complete pain in a way that any mother can comprehend. While I felt such sadness for her experience, I was even more overwhelmed by her willingness to seek strength and solace in something so much greater than the emotions and emptiness. This is an amazing story of love, hope and the triumph of spirit.”

Blessings In the Mire
Reviewer: J. Maldonado:  “Jan Deelstra had my undivided attention with her tale in Blessings in the Mire. Through a mother’s eye she tells the story of devastating loss and how she found the spark to start her recovery to begin a new life. This life is full of challenges, but if we learn the lesson that Deelstra teaches, she shows we all have the opportunity and ability to turn adversity into a healthy, happy life. She takes the reader down a path of inspiration and enlightenment to show how to look within to overcome adversity. I would like to thank Ms. Deelstra for sharing her treasure of life skills and bringing such inspiration and enlightenment to myself and her readers giving us the hope that courage and implementation of her life skills can help to make a better life.”

Reviewer: Anonymous:  “The first chapter is excruciatingly painful. It is difficult to get through. By the end, I had laughed, cried, and learned more about the human spirit than I could have otherwise. This book is inspirational. It is healing. It is empowering. I definitely recommend it, especially to those who have suffered any sort of loss, abuse, sadness, depression, or death of a loved one. And to those who believe in miracles, this will reinforce that belief.”

Powerful. Insightful. Candid. Moving.
Reviewer: Anonymous:  “This book, Blessings in the Mire begins as an excruciating journey into the author’s life. The first page had me in tears as she wrote with such raw emotion and candor. It is a book that will remain with you long after the end. This is a wonderful healing tool for anyone experiencing the loss of a loved one, but it is so much more than that. She sees the light, and humor in so many ways. And the awareness she has of the field of coincidences and intention is acute and thought-provoking. Highly recommended, especially if you are interested in metaphysical issues of energies, angels, mediums, reincarnation, coincidences and the like.”